Tag: Don’t Need

I Don’t Need a Train Ride

There is a train at the station. This train is comprised of many cars. There are several cars that appear to be having wonderful parties. People are drinking and laughing and enjoying themselves. There are other cars that are more sedate. People are sitting and conversing with animated gestures and intense faces. There are other…

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I Don’t Need Anymore Snacks

I am an “open-one-bag-at-a-time person”. I detest having multiple boxes of cereal or several bags of chips open at once. I like to open one bag, finish the contents of said bag, then to move on to the next bag. I’m anal like that. DJ was not. DJ was an “I-need-to-open-every-snackbag-in-the-house-and-taste-it-all” kind of person. And,…

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I Need Some Time Away

I used to love Sunday mornings. There’s a radio station in my city that plays Sunday morning jazz and once DJ woke up and started getting ready for the day, the radio went on in the bedroom and in the living room and we would listen to easy jazz for a good part of the…

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I Need to Know…

…how God expects me to just continue doing what I was doing before DJ died without constantly breaking down. I have left my home three times in the last week. I went to Walgreens and almost lost it there. I took my mom to lunch the other day and that went okay which inspired me…

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I Need My Connection

I watch people. They walk around living their lives, seemingly untouched by disaster or death. I know that’s not necessarily true of everyone but I don’t care becauseĀ I feel a disconnect to this world. I feel as though there is a wall between me and everything around me. I can see what everyone is doing.…

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I Need to Stop Crying

My partner of 10 years died on Friday. On Thursday, during our hospital visit, she had such a good day that I went home thinking about where I would put the hospital bed, what kinds of modifications I would need to make to the bathroom, and whether or not I could find a temporary ramp…

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My “I Don’t Needs”

We’re all driven by need, whether we want to admit it or not. In general, most of us know the difference between wanting and needing something and if we’re completely honest with ourselves, many of the things we need are actually things we want. However, when I say, I need to live in Italy, I…

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