Tag: Commitment

I Need to Keep Losing

I have been on Weight Watchers for about a year and a half now. When I started going (again), Djamila was a not entirely happy about it and I understood why. I’m not a yo-yo dieter, but I was always looking for ways to lose weight and get a little healthier. I tried different techniques…

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I Need More Light

How do you gauge the depth of a loss? What do we use to measure it? Time? Memories? Stuff? I don’t know. I only know that all of it contributes to the overwhelming feeling of being lost. Loss and feeling lost. Most definitely not the same and certainly not mutually exclusive, but related none the…

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I Need Everything

I thought I knew what loss was…I have lost important people in my life. My grandmothers and grandfathers, my father, my aunt, my cousin…all important to me. Their lives were interwoven with mine in any number of ways. I loved my maternal grandmother, dearly. She raised me and helped me to become the woman I…

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I Need A Memory Machine

As I walk around this empty house, I am amazed at what constitutes a person’s life once they’ve left us. Bits of paper with scribbled notes. Receipts. Old greeting cards. Snacks. Clothing. Jewelry. Flotsam and jetsam are the words that appeared most prominently in my mind as I tossed and turned in bed the other…

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I Need to Stop Crying

My partner of 10 years died on Friday. On Thursday, during our hospital visit, she had such a good day that I went home thinking about where I would put the hospital bed, what kinds of modifications I would need to make to the bathroom, and whether or not I could find a temporary ramp…

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I Need to Recommit

I started Weight Watchers in November of 2015. It doesn’t seem that long ago but when I break it down, amazingly enough, in March, it will be 5 months. Yes, I’ve lost weight. As of this writing, I’ve dropped about 18 pounds. That’s not too shabby. It’s a little more than a pound a week…

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